stuck in the middle...

damn..

its been a while since I've wrote my last post..well I'm busy with my life,study and etc..

erm i found it hard for me to write this since i left this blog for too many month..damn...

actually currently I'm having some problem..it is worth or not to buy a Black Berry for someone which are not yours.. (a girl i mean..)..but i love her so much..muchhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......

hurm...what if she just left me or she reject me after that..damn...

opinion please...owh God..i really need your help in this....

I'm back fellas...

salam..

wow..

its been a very long time i left my page blank..hurm...

many things that i'd experienced since that..

1) I continue my studies in masters level....(just finished my 2nd month here)

2) I'd found new people with new environment which i start to love them..

3) All my friends are rocks..!!..(my new friends).

hurm...what else...

hahhaha.....

4) not so many things to say but actually i managed to leave my old education background to a new environment..

5) I managed to forget about her...even though sometimes it feels like dying..but i'd made it..hehehe.

6) I found a new girl...a friend.a very good friend..nice..different..most of the times we share some stories..hhahah...she is nice and cute..

well...

it fasting month now..it been 2 weeks fasting and i experienced things differently this time..

i'd break my fast and sahur alone..yes,sometimes with friends,with my house mate but...i really miss my family right now..

hurm..what else...

its kind of special feelings when i'm alone with my friends (referring to no 6)...she picked me up to class sometimes...we share our stories together..i love the things she loves and she loves mine also...accidentally we have a lot in common..

hahaha

what is it??...

later...wait for my next post...see ya!!

urmmm...me and her..

tertekan..tertekan..tertekan...i had been rejected...sedih..mmg sedih...tp nk bt mcm mana..i'm just not good enough for her..or maybe aku mmg xbagus langsung..bleh ker aku terima..boleh ke x..aku kene gak..tp aku mmg trasa hati jgk lah...adoi...tp one thing aku just xpaham..ada kah dia btl2 xnmpak aku suka kt dia atau pn dia sengaja menafikan apa yg dia nmpak..sume kwan sekelling nmpak my interenst to her..but she just said that i'm not showed any interest to her..i told most of my happy moment and story to her..erm maybe aku xcukup criteria untuk dia kot..aku xda satu bnda yg slalu dikatakan "THE X-FACTOR"..yup maybe aku xda bnda tue..but...all i want is just get to know me first..than u decide..samada aku ni suit ke x dgn dia..aku bkn jenis lelaki yg tgk perempua cntik,terus aku jatuh hati..no...i'm not..even seseorg tu cantik..xsemestinye dia suit dgn aku..aku perlu kenal sebagai sahabat..and lama2 bru lah perasaan tu wujud..aku xpaksa pn..perasaan tu datang sendri..or maybe dia xsuka mcm tu..xsuka start sebagai kawan..mgkin dia percaya pada cinta pandang pertama..dari mata turun ke hati...aku mmg xpandai menilai seseorg tu dgn hanya sekali pandang and without knowing the person first..aku dh bnyk kali terkena,.my first expectation always wrong..aku btl2 buntu sekarg...should i let her go..or should i wait for her....hati masih sayang..

kepala masih lg pening2..antara sedar dgn xsedar..aku dh habis belajar..waitin' for somethin' i think..but still dunno what is it..continue my study??love?? or kerja..terlalu bnyk persoalan bermain dlm fikiran...